Friday, March 4, 2011

fill me.

I don't know why I push you away, when I know all I desire is to be close to You.
I get angry.
I get frustrated.
I'm sad and lonely.
And I know those feelings can change, if I let you back in.
It would be much easier for me to surrender and let you take over.
I keep holding on to the baggage, and it has become so heavy, I can't carry it anymore.
So you take it. Please.
Take my past hurts, mistakes, failures and frustrations, and get rid of them for me.
You carry those things somewhere far away, and don't let me go searching for them.
I've asked before, when I wasn't able to fully let go.
But I'm so tired... I'm ready.
Ready to feel worthy, loved, full of joy, peace and hope.
I haven't felt that way in so long.
Let your love fill me.